He Will

“And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.”

‭‭                                                                                   2 Corinthians‬ 12:9

Well, this came up as the verse of the day. What timing. As I sit here, just exhausted, so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I know, I KNOW that having the surgeries was Gods plan. I know it beyond a shadow of a doubt. What I dont know is why He has allowed persistent infection to follow me all of these months. Even now I have a spreading pain that feels like the infection flare up and I cant seem to shake this feeling of dread. I was supposed to be good to go; after surgery and 10 days of strong antibiotics.

Unfortunately that hasnt worked out so well. But as I was sitting here struggling, this verse popped up. Honestly, I didnt quite know how to take it, on one hand I kind of wanted to be offended at it, like really, God? Are you kidding me right now?! And on the other hand, I felt a little hysterical laughter; like fine, you want me to brag about my weaknesses? Here we go. So, I am weak physically with all of this junk going on dragging me down, I am weak mentally wanting to whine about it, and I am weak emotionally and spiritually as I stuggle with not being able to be enough to make myself better and not enough to care for my family in the way I want to, and not enough to keep my chin above water even. But, its going to be ok, because God is good and He’s going to take these weaknesses and He’s going to use them for His glory. I dont know how and I dont know when, but I do have His assurance that HE WILL.

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